~qu3eN^ whI$kyg@L*`~

finally!!!

2007-08-28T23:56:00.000-07:00

damn!! its been such a long time!!!since i wrote in here..been so busy..so many things have happen.things changed!! new things..memories!!!
okay so wats new???

hmmm boyfriend?
love?
life?
sex?
new?
old?
...wat else???

2007-07-01T20:03:00.000-07:00

Fergie Big Girls Don't Cry Lyrics

2007-06-26T00:51:00.000-07:00

kacau je..

2007-06-25T23:48:00.000-07:00

this andrew ar. i tell you.. lunch la k so ma frens all busy i packed chic rice for lunch! FINE!!

den went inside the pantry la to eat so ma fren frm australlia called den talkin for bout 30 mins so i said wanna eat talk later..such a lie.. malas d la wanna talk.so den so sleepy i set the alarm for 1.55 to get up n sleepy for wahile...so everything was so nice noe..until can sempat dream..don have to noe wat waz da dream ..den andrew walks in la k.. as usual starts to bug!

i chased him out la ryt..den not even a few mins he comes bac in the pantry n says someone wants to see mme! and i was wtf???so fine had to go la..one nut boy askin me bout genting..HELLO!! WTF DO I LOOK LIKE SOME INFORMATION TRAVEL COUNTER GIRL.. so fucked up la ok..den no choice cannot sleep so i went n got friutz la! haizzzz.....

2007-06-25T19:28:00.000-07:00

he was a good artist to draw me!

camwhoring at barflamz!

Bitch

2007-06-25T19:11:00.000-07:00

fuck her la ok. hate her so damn much.. never hated anyone like this before okay! damn selfish chinese piece of shit.dunno how to act her age..pity her bf la seriously! dunno how da fuck she can actually have one..the guy must b jus like her!!!!

nutcase furry pussy head!!!when she wants somethin..u mean a world to her.if not!! huh..she jus does not noe u o jus pickz on u .like wat da fuck la find someone ure own age ok.childish bitch!

lazy jackass cant even fuck someone so she jus fuckz herself..fuck off u pig!eat like one talk like one!!haizz pity her la really!

god bless her la!

too hell wit you!

2007-06-23T22:47:00.000-07:00

Text And Quotes Words

haizzz

2007-06-23T21:07:00.000-07:00

ok so wat to put herre ar?// got la somethin rite but den ar.. so cannot put it here la damn it!
its jus suppose to b within me n me alone!
shhhh nobody noe.. only me n god! evem ma bff also.. jus imagine la!

2007-06-20T01:13:00.000-07:00

Myspace Glitters

sexy!

2007-06-19T23:45:00.000-07:00

Myspace Glitters

2007-06-19T23:22:00.001-07:00

Myspace Glitters

2007-06-19T23:19:00.000-07:00

Myspace Glitters

2007-06-19T23:16:00.001-07:00

MySpace

Paparazzi

2007-06-19T17:40:00.001-07:00

hEY hO watch ure flow its time for the whiskgal show holla whiskygals show!

*clik clik clik* thank you thank you!!

hahahaha red carpet ppl! so damn chun.m so comin out on tv okay,but like duh m not gonna get a chance to watch it cuz dunno wen they gonna show..im tellin u..DIVA is a hell of a movie.gotta seriously watch it ok. i like took pictures wit ning baizura.wit awhal! could not do it wit adam, he is such a snob! the other two girls are so damn cute..but they were really busy!

so anyways its really cool la to do all this! even thou u aint a celeb but still they take jus pictures n pictures of u.

i was kinda actually workin der la.. but not gonna get paid cuz i kinda volentered.so my job was to go to al the rest of the ppl and ask them to come and take a pic at the wall of Diva!!!!oh ya wit hot sexy real divas alll dressed in a really short hot dress..lookin all diva!

so wen they come terence ma camera man wil take their pic den v will print it on the spot wit them. so everyone like so exited even i was k. so i took pics also la but not wit the dancers cuz they were late.

so den watch trhe movie all d. balik la!

chunted to the core la.. now waiting for 'tipu kanan tipu kiri' premires.

Beautiful Liar

2007-06-17T23:16:00.000-07:00

Beyonce Knowles Lyrics

2007-06-17T00:18:00.000-07:00

Don't Hate Me Cuz I'M Beautiful... Words

pice of shitz

2007-06-17T00:10:00.000-07:00

Fuck all those muthafukaz who don apperiate frienship!!

2007-06-16T23:57:00.000-07:00

Blog images

fuck dem all

2007-06-16T23:08:00.000-07:00

Fuk Da Hataz Words

OMG

2007-06-16T22:09:00.000-07:00

Raj jus called me! asked me to come over. this fella al wil only cal when they want something only. real fucaz la! den he wants me to go his hse so badly. i don mind goin. but m meetin cuppy cake today. ill like rather meet him den goin to rajz hse k..pleezze!

lemme tel u story bout this guy la k..
one morning in the train on the way to work he came in n he was on the phone.. real LOA la.
he was talkin to his fren so i jus pasang telinga. den he looked at me n said somethin so i jus smiled. den started talkin.. so he is wirkin in digi to. den he got down frm the same station wit me. n he is stayon in mentari. which is next to taylors. k den v never met for a long time.. din even xchange number.. but i noe i told him me age la.

k one day goin for lunch break he saw me n said hie.. i like one dumb nut forgot n wuz thinkin who is this hottie sayin hie to me all la.got xcited nie!! den he said it wuz him.. x change numbers. k fine.. spoke a few times in the phone n met up also. den came orientation nite.
i was walkin n saw him der.. he was kinda sesat for bein der la cuz its only for stundents, somethin like dat la. den v were talkin al.went to one quite dark place. this fucka started flirting wit me.but he has a chic u noe.
den wat else would have happen tell me.. made out la duh!!
k fine la den he byggin me to come to his hse,which obviously i din want to. so when to mentari but near one kinda place la. make out maximum! guy was so damn turned on k! so wanted a blow but HELLO i was so not gonna do dat!k den dat story finish d al. so din see for sometome. den meet in the train staton so he was gettin down a few more stations la. this fella doin nonsense la in the train. so i also like wtf rite.
den v started talkin bout bdays n al. came to mine ha asked so i told. he jus fuckin completely ignored me k. creating one comotion in the train. FINE!!!!
den wanna talk din call for such a freakin long time.,. a few weeks bac out of the blue ha calls n apologizes.. and i so kind like a idiot said its k.den today he called n ask to go over.. i dowan la! takut tau. abang aku ank datang nie nanti my cuppy!

so to hell with RAJ!
GO FLY KITEZ *sucker*

LOVE FAITH DESTINY! part 2

2007-06-16T19:47:00.000-07:00

With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face.
She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"
I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.
Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain wouldl go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide. But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young, she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three years's feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end, that was what I had in mind.
The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, loosing our last moments in silence.
I saw the taxi from far away, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."
She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her. I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.

She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words

LOVE FAITH DESTINY! part 1

2007-06-16T19:31:00.000-07:00

It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.
I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together.She said, "I miss you."I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home."She did not open up her umbrella, I knew she wanted to share mine.I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."
Unwillingly, She opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.
Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!"Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, she said she would take the train back home.
Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night.
But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."
We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship.

We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.
She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this

forgive me

2007-06-16T19:12:00.000-07:00

Can you forgive me again?

I don't know what I said

But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out

I thought that I would die

It hurts so much to hurt you

Then you look at me

You're not shouting anymore

You're silently broken

I'd give anything nowto kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret,

I cry "I don't wanna lose you!

"But some how I know that you will never leave me,

'Cause you were made for me

Some how I'll make you see

How happy you make me

I can't live this life

Without you by my side

I need you to survive

So stay with me

You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that

I'm sorry

And you forgive me again

You're my one true friend

And I never meant to hurt you

when your gone

2007-06-16T18:50:00.000-07:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lieis made up on your side
When you walk awayI count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK I miss youI've never felt this way before

Everything that I doReminds me of you
And the clothes you leftthey lie on the floor
And they smell just like youI love the things that you do
When you walk awayI count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

We were made for each otherOut here forever
I know we were All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

breathe easy

2007-06-15T01:22:00.000-07:00

Cruel to the eye

I see the way she makes you smile

Cruel to the eye

Watching her hold what used to be mine

Why did I lie?What did I walk away to findOoohhh why.....oooh why...

I.........can't breathe easyCan't sleep at night

Till you're by my sideNo

I............can't breathe easyI can't dream yet another dreamWithout you lying next to me

There's no air

Curse me inside

For every word that caused you to cry

Curse me insideI won't forget, no i won't baby,I don't know why

I left the one I was looking to find Nothing makes sense anymore

all are weloome.

2007-06-15T00:57:00.000-07:00

Welcome Signs Words

kiss me

2007-06-15T00:41:00.000-07:00

Kiss Glitters

2007-06-15T00:38:00.000-07:00

Quotes Words

stay cool before u fire

2007-06-15T00:19:00.000-07:00

You're riding in my car, I turn on the radioI'm pulling you closer
you're tellin' no
You say you don't like it, but I know you'rea liar'
Cause when we kiss, ooo fire
Late at night you're taking me home
You say you wanna stay, but I want you to go
I say I don't love you, but you know I'm a liar'
Cause when we kiss, ooo fire,
You've had a hold on me right from the start
A grip so tight, I couldn't tear it apart
My nerves all jumpin', actin' like a fool
Your kisses might burn, but my heart stays cool
Well, Romeo and Juliet,
Samson and Delilah
Baby, you can bet they were burning with desire
If I say split, then you'd know I'd be lying
'Cause when we kiss, ooo fire,

When we kiss I'm on fire
Your tenderness gives me desire
I can't resist your tender lips
We we kiss, ooo fire!!
In flames baby boy!
u make me sweat!

LIFE

2007-06-14T23:56:00.000-07:00

the pressure building upi feel like giving uphow the hell am i gonna back ma first album upwhen everythgin has chaangedit wil neva be the samenoboby knew me now everybody knows ma nameand i feel so ashamedi neva yse to b da kinda babe that would complaintheres no diffrenteveryday is the samenow its been months out in the roadon tour doin so amny shows.heads spinning feels like its gonna explodeand i jus wanna knowif evrybodyout there is feeling me im losing mt mind and i cant believei let this shit get the best of meand now i gotta let you noewats got me insanecause i cant stand rainits hittin ma window pane,a little to muchand now i gotta let you noewats i got my face an the frowncause i cant stand da soundthe thunder is crashing downupon ma hsecuz now i gotta let you noenow i got no more worries nowmy pocket's fatter now,look in the mirror my feflection look diff nowyour gettein biggerSHEREEN, you need to settle downwhy do i feel this way.should i be happy or should i be sadeverything that ive been giving pls help me dear lordits all over but i cant escape!thats me......

F%$K u

2007-06-14T20:44:00.000-07:00

i was walkin down the street one day

and when i saw you i did not noe waqt to say

ure eyes were shinning

you were smilling at me

and when i saw you

i was so amazed wit you

maybe i don have the culrs that you like

mayb i don have eyes like the sky

and im not sure if im the gilrl in ure dreams

but i can show you wat love means

one day you came and talk to me

and you said that we are meant to be

i was happy everything was so fine

until you told me that everthing was a lie

how could you do this to me you said we are meant to be

you showed me how to cry

wen you said that everything was a lie!

FUCK YOU!

2007-06-14T20:06:00.000-07:00

wats left of you and me?

nothin at all.. i screwed things up!

do i deserve it..my fault ar?

somtimes i thinks its not.. at times it is

fucked up larr

should i now jus be the same or ignore?

tell me someone??

~*qu3eN^ *whI$kyg@L*`~

finally!!!

kacau je..

Bitch

too hell wit you!

haizzz

sexy!

Paparazzi

Beautiful Liar

pice of shitz

fuck dem all

OMG

LOVE FAITH DESTINY! part 2

LOVE FAITH DESTINY! part 1

forgive me

when your gone

breathe easy

all are weloome.

kiss me

stay cool before u fire

LIFE

F%$K u

~qu3eN^ whI$kyg@L*`~